You where my greatest victory. The self achievement felt like I was part of your very being.. But it seems that everything was a prelude to shadow. But I know, you don't look at me the way you used to do. So take me apart, shatter my glass heart. Tell me that I don't deserve you, make me wish that I can hold onto you, but where were you when I needed a friend, but yet with everything, I lost in the end. And I'm failing, wishing, caring. Worthless daring, but I don't want to lose what little I have. Even though you where never there, I still wish you where here. Everything was just a delay, but to my dismay, I ended up deeper then 6 feet under. I heard your voice, I made you laugh. You made me cry, hold back tears forget my fears. I wish I could, stand up, but my indolence leaves me juxtaposed. I'm just like the rest, but this was just a test, to see how far I'd fall. It just hurts too much to breathe, the only thing that makes sense to me is redemption, but where's my forgiveness. But I'm scared of leaving, you behind, before I can tell you how much I tried. You tell me it was a lie, told me I'm better then that, but you don't comprehend that I don't want to try, because it ends up in shadows, kills me more. Hold my hand I'm not scared, forget my fears, make me see... What the fuck is wrong with me? What have I become? I lied too much, left to scar, covered suffocation way to far. But I want you to know that in this prelude of shadow, you where the only thing that made me strive for perfection.